The Choice

Imagine this is wheel of your life, do you think you can go fast or slow with this shape of wheel, and now you know why your life is not smooth.   

This is important for now! 6 Criteria for my future husband Sense of humor - Must have ! Independent - Don't cheat ! - It is unforgivable. Help me grow as a person -   He should help me evolve into a better version of me. That doesn’t mean he should belittle me with insults or tell me that you’re not “good enough,” because positive transformation cannot happen without total acceptance of who you are; but my partner should challenge me to step up my game in every aspect of your life. Have a life outside of our relationship -  He shouldn’t expect me to spend every waking moment with him, because I have hopes and dreams beyond the scope of our relationship. Relationship not everything. Good looking ( I wish !) 

 I'll come back to this after I get better understand on this question. Who will remember your name 10 years after you die? For now , Why ? Why I wan people to remember me after I die ?

The second question that catch my attention from this book.  Does my life matter? Will anyone be sad and miss me when I'm leaving this world? I try to imagine :- My parents: Ancua ah? the house loan, car loan, ptptn loan , funeral ceremony. all these how to settle?  She leave this world also good, else who can stand her bad tempered.  My siblings: Maybe my sister will be sad , I do hope she feel a bit sad. ( but I really not sure ) My brother, maybe don't really matter him.  My best friend: She will be sad, but When people ask her about me , she probably reply , I actually don't really know her. We don't have common friends.  a 15 years friend … My colleagues gang: I think Khor will miss me at least. Andrea maybe still angry ( hahaha). DC will feel sad thou.   Others, why she died huh? what happened to her?  ----- busy body. Church LG: You will be missed colleen! Less 1 pianist !  Jun: this is the ending, finally can unload this relationship....

I don't read that often. During coronavirus pandemic, most of the people been through panic attack, lost myself, feels hopeless, loneliness, getting anxious ( stress, fear , worry) and so on.  I'm one of them.  Well , I'm a Christian, and I'm glad that I'm a Christian.  Bible , Sunday service, Life group, always pulling me back to the right path. Not only faith, but patience, helpful, and stay positive. Okay, so why I said I don't read that often in my very first sentence.  That's one day, I feel bored , but I don't want to disturb my friend by listening my emotions. There, I saw one book on my bedside table. It's totally new, given by my life group leader- Ruth.  The book like waving the hand to me and say " Hello, girl , it's time to read me".  Alright, I look at it and say , why not , I just wanna kill time and get rid of my emotional. The book title:                            J...

  八月的表白 - 凌晨12点 突然有人说喜欢我 他是我这里第一份工作的senior 2017年， 老板让他带我， 他很耐心地教会我全部他懂得SAP， 我当时什么都不会， 是他让我上班时可以比较安心 因为什么事都可以问他， 接着他离职了 2018-2021 即使大家不再同一个公司 ， 但是还是有联系， 可能也是算一种依赖， 习惯性的问他工作上不会的东西。 有时闷的时候， 就会聊聊天。 我只能说 谢谢你 喜欢我 但是我并没对你有爱情的喜欢， 我此刻能做的只是拒绝 然后别太频繁的联系吧 拒绝好过拖着。 我祝你幸福！ 才发现被人默默地喜欢 其实是真的有点不值得 当事人都不知道  但你却花那么多时间 我希望大家如果你又在暗恋谁 尽快给对方知道吧 如果是不可能的话 就趁早停止 寻找下一个 生命很短暂  但如果你觉得暗恋是一个很浪漫的事情 好吧 我可以理解 ！ 虽然是大龄 但上天啊 我的那一位呢 ？